Now a days I don't feel anything much

Sometimes even my heart misses few beats

But I don't feel an alert at all

Nothing is in order nothing falls in place

Though we waited for long n long n long

I dont feel depressed 

I dont feel hopeless or hopeful 

There is some chest pain, some blur vision, some stringless reality

I don't feel to feel them at all

My brain works like a mecha as always 

Fevers come n go like former people

In my balcony flowers bloom n die like dreams  as always