Timeline Beats : One

I had plans but I woke up tired n sad

They said everything is not as I think

N everything is not all so bad

Now a days I feel allergic

Nah I dont go some dramatic

Only when the tiny birds sit on my grills

They try their best to cheer me with thrills

May be they r getting homeless soon

Like me they will get tired too

Simply its just the matter of time

At the end everyone is victim of someone's crime

They say its even better to be late

How could they know

In my memories fro

My own mom gave me the eyes of hate

Every night I got hit by those abuse

In my dreams I still walk in my old shoes

Every morn I wake up like the loneliest

Life is a lab with this neverending pain test

I need to cuddle but he had to go

I dont demand I was just feeling low

I took my boyfriend as my husband long time ago

I hav waited for him every second n every moment though

On the next day he told me that I m not beautiful 

He reminded me so n treated my like I m hopeless n fool

He betrayed my feelings or never he did understood 

It seems alright as long as we see smokes fly from a fresh food

Our house is clean still n nothing has got yet smelly

Every object is on its place n we have made no mess really 

Only my psych gone messed up n smashed up with awkward thoughts 

My so called friends n family think I m so needy n literally gross

We never talked we never faught coz he doesn't like it

Its simple yeah

So I talk to myself n I fight with myself like forever to end it

My profiles r full of decorations n febrications of beautiful face ups

I weave impressions superstitions n stories with careful lace ups

Left my job of an analyst coz I needed some proof 

Life rocked me n crooked me n my dreams got eventually mop off

My senses dont work on anymore with hot caffeine 

Stretched n stressed out off a beat in a sea I failed to define 

Let go all the philosophies n all words divine 

Every breath lost its dignity n sanity on a fineline

Now a days I dont feel desire or thirst or hunger

Any reaction any string any lust or any anger

I can't leave I got trapped out there is strong alibi

My life is small n so do my feelings n all absolutely  thereby

I had plans but I woke up tired n sad

They said everything is not as I think

N everything is not all so bad